“What did you do that your parents didn’t want you to do?”

Elephants.  Sitting here trying to think of that random time I disobeyed my parents all I can think about is elephants.  I really have no idea why.  I can’t say I ever really had a fascination with them or an interest anywhere beyond the next guy or gal but for some reason all I see is an over-sized creature flinging dust over his back.  Maybe the elephant means something more…  a hidden message my inner conscious is trying to tell me.  I’m trying to remember what they say about elephants and again I draw a blank so I google the meaning of an elephant in your dream and what does it say?  Basically elephants are a symbol of not forgetting or sometimes said to help job your memory.  That’s right, they say elephants never forget!  Are you kidding me?  I now feel like my mind is blatantly playing games and making fun of me!  “Okay Jess, your task is to remember something from your past so let me help you… here’s an image of an elephant, you forgetful fool!”  Suddenly I am beginning to realize something about this situation.  Growing up I was always so hard on myself, my own worst enemy.  My parents were constantly talking me down from the ledge I’d find myself perched on when I felt ill-equip to handle an upcoming event.  Even to this day I’m known to put way too much pressure on myself creating an internal struggle equivalent to seeing an elephant when you’re trying to formulate a story of your past.