BitterSweet Day

As a younger mom fighting cancer it’s always a mix of emotions when a big event happens.  Today is the first day of school for our little man, and it’s sort of a milestone because it’s 1st grade.  I know everyone see Kindergarten as a big step but having half-day kindergarten wasn’t as big of a deal to me as a full day of school in 1st grade.  It’s been a mix of emotions already this morning.

• It was awesome being able to walk him to school this morning…
• It was great watching him walk into the building without tears and without being super clingy…
• It was slightly freeing to walk back home without him (we’ve had quite a busy summer together)…
• It’s nice having some quiet time this morning to drink coffee and just relax…
• I’m so glad I was here to share today with him and my husband…

Then the realities of things slowly sink in.

• I hope I’m able to walk him daily until it’s too cold to walk…
• I hope this isn’t the last first day of school I experience…
• I can’t wait to experience this year with him, I hope nothing slows me down or gets in the way…

And so the daily battle and the roller coaster ride continues.